Hello all! I feel like it’s been forever since I’ve
written a blog post. I also have some promises to fulfill and I will get to them. I’ve kind of been on hiatus because, as you all know, life happens. Since I’ve been gone I have gone through some struggles and have had some experiences that I would like to share with you all.
If you’ve read my last blog post you know I was trying to start on a more healthy lifestyle and so I began looking at my habits and noticed that I was eating out a lot again, I was eating more than I should, and I wasn’t working out enough. I started looking for all types of ways that would help me to stay focused on losing weight and such and I found a fitness group on Facebook that was started by Ezekiel of P4CM (Passion 4 Christ Movement) and I thought it would be a great way to be held accountable during this journey. Well it started out great at first but things slowly started to shift. Some people were really serious about being physically healthy and they helped others to be more health conscious but that was the problem. I joined thinking it was going to be less focused on how we look and more about how we as Christians should view our health. I was mistaken. Soon, I started to see pictures of people flexing and comparing themselves to others and coveting basically. Some would think I may be being to “legalistic” but I thought some people were being vain and shallow. Don’t get me wrong I thought it was great having support during the process but I was hoping it was going to be a little different. On top of it all I had to look at the fact that I was starting to focus more on social media and I definitely had to cut that off for a while.
Since then I have lost about 10 lbs but I don’t want to focus so much on weight loss. I’d rather be more focused on my overall health and that includes my spiritual health. I have drifted so far from God these past few months and I know its because I have had plenty of distractions. I startedto draw away and lose trust in Him and so I began to reevaluate my life. As a Christian all my faith should rest in the Cross but lately I’ve questioned my faith. I want every Christian to know that when or if you go through a period in your walk with Christ when you begin to doubt please don’t feel like its all over for you. I had to realize that. I discovered that fasting is essential to our walk and I find my self doing it not just ftom food but also from everything else that causes me to lose focus on God. Fasting and prayer and reading definitely helps you to regain trust and remain assured. Also letting go helps a lot too. Don’t hold on to things because it will only cause you to feel like you have control and you really dont and this causes you to have less trust in the Lord because things aren’t going your way. For me it was not feeling stable financially and not being able to find work. It tore me apart but God reassures me every day that this isn’t something that I should focus on and that he will always work everything out for my good (Rom 8:28).
I still have struggles and I due fall into doubt sometimes but I don’t stay there. Now I pick my head up and look to the heavens and remember God is in control. When it comes to my health I’m also not in control but I can practice healthy living not for myself but for the kingdom. Food is not my master, God is and I refuse to be lazy or gluttonous. Two sins that lead to obesity. So through all that I’ve been through I know now that I want to be all trusting in God no matter what and I want to let go more and Give everything to God and remember that He is in control. I want for my spiritual health to be of the most importance and for the Gospel to reign over all and be at the center of everything I do.
Thank you to everyone who follows my blog, I really appreciate it and I hope that no matter what you all are going through you remember the Cross and that it is there ftom which grace and mercy abounds. God is with you all and He is in control so please let go.
Grace and peace to you.